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From the Ashes

by Megan Betley

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1.
I used to be so inspired, when did I get so tired? Another year older, but not a day wiser. Where did my fire go? It left me so cold. Now I'm lying at the bottom, picking up the pieces. Trying to believe in me. Hold onto a dream & stand tall through it all. Crawl out of the darkness, beyond this. I reach for the stars but they fall, & I fall apart. I reach for the stars but they fall apart.
2.
I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I see a silver lining on the struggle, I can get myself out of this hole. He threw a rope down & I caught it. I never trust a salesman, but I bought it. I'm fooled once again. The crowd all claps their hands as the tightrope walker stands... Watch me twist, now watch me turn. Watch me shine, now watch me burn. Watch me walk the thinnest line & fall. Watch me twist, now watch me turn. Watch me shine, now watch me burn. I will walk the thinnest line & fall... Watch me lose it all. High on the wire, who will catch me if i'm prey to my desires? Why would I let me? I'm fooled once again. So I put on a good show to all below me, keep all my secrets - no one will know me. I won't get fooled again. The tightrope walker stands, walks the plank til it bends. Watch me twist, now watch me turn. Watch me shine, now watch me burn. I will walk the thinnest line & fall. Watch me twist, now watch me turn. Watch me shine, now watch me burn. I will walk the thinnest line & fall, watch me lose it all. Watch as she descends, this is how our story ends. Watch me twist, now watch me turn. Watch me shine, now watch me burn. I will walk the thinnest line & fall. Watch me twist, now watch me turn. Watch me shine, now watch me burn. I will walk the thinnest line & fall, watch me lose it all.
3.
You were a spark, the light to my dark, the missing part. I fell so far. You built me up, but not enough to fill the emptiness. I fell apart, I was sinking fast. We couldn't make it last. But I'll never forget what could have been, what should have been. I'll say I knew you when, knew you when you were mine. I'll say I knew you when you were mine. Photos fade, I kept your words. We both have changed, but somehow it still hurts when you remember how complete you felt in his arms. But I'll never forget what could have been, what we should have been. Should have been. I'll say I knew you when, knew you when you were mine. If the stars aligned, if we reversed the time - would it change your mind? Change your mind. I'll say I knew you when, knew you when you were mine. Cause I'll never forget what we could have been, what we should have been. Should have been. I'll say I knew you when, knew you when you were mine.
4.
I swore I'd never fall, I'd never feel at all. Tied knots on my heartstrings. Laid lonely in my bed replaying in my head what went wrong with everything. You put the stars back in my sky, you gave me wings & helped me fly. What do I do without you? What do I do without you? I just go back, back, to howling at the moon. I can't shake the ache, your voice replays for days. Crash in my mind like waves. Oh, but hollow suits me well. I kiss & never tell I always want you back. You put the stars back in my sky, you put the light back in my eyes. What do I do without you? What do I do without you? I just go back to howling at the moon. I just go back, back, to howling at the moon.
5.
If anybody else is reading, tell them I didn't want to speak. I trapped the words inside my pen - til the ink started to leak. I thought that I was strong enough - til my arms began to bleed. So if you need me...you won't need me. Time to sing myself to sleep. So I will try to rewrite history to pretend I never lost that piece inside me that wants to survive, desperate for a cause. So if you need me...you won't need me. Who I was will not return. And it may hurt... and it may burn... it's just another lesson learned. You never knew how to be lonely...honestly, it really shows. The waves of hopelessness inside me always seem to come & grow. So if you need me..... you won't need me. I probably won't be there. It's hard to live, it's hard to breathe. Sometimes I just don't fucking care.
6.
It was so simple when we were little, we believed that we could fly. Afraid of sleeping but always dreaming, never believing we could die. With hearts so open, how are they broken? When did love teach us to cry? Now the emptiness within me is trying to my soul alive. Is this all I'll ever be? I know this idea frightens me. Is this all I will become? God forbid, you better hold your tongue. When they lay me down to rest, did I give this life all my best? When they lay me, when they lay me down... It was so easy to crawl within me, when I was eight my father died. And its astounding that no one found me, always hiding in plain sight. Wondering if life has some great secret in it's purpose or it's time. And who am I? Who will I be? Is there more to life for me? Is this all I'll ever be? I know this idea frightens me. Is this all I will become? God forbid, you better hold your tonuge. When they lay me down to rest, did I give this life all my best? When they lay me, when they lay me.... Is this all I'll ever be? I know this idea frightens me. Is this all I will become? God forbid, you better hold your tonuge. When they lay me down to rest, did I give this life all my best? Did I make you proud? Did I make you proud?
7.
Treats me like a book on a shelf. Takes me down when he's got nothing else. Recites my lines of love sick poetry then puts me back when my words get too heavy. My pages fray with words I'll never say, my spine aches with age. The dust collects like heartbreak in my chest. I write all I can, he puts me back on the shelf again. Do you wonder how I spend my time on nights you leave me lonely with my mind? Where I go, with who, or how I feel? The demons in my nightmares are too real. My pages fray with truth I'll never say, my spine aches with age. The dust collects like heartbreak in my chest. I write all I can, he puts me back on the shelf... But I write all I can, he puts me back on the shelf. I write all I can he puts me back on the shelf again. I write, and I ache, I write, and I wait. I write and I ache, I write and I wait I wait til your finger tips they graze my tattered spine...
8.
You said I'm the one who needs to be saved, I needed you to be brave. But I was a fool to think you're my friend, I let you let me down again. I needed help, you walked away. I was the one burned by the flame. It won't be the same again, I forgive but don't forget. I forgive but don't forget. So I start again, I have to build back what my demons all have killed. But I will prove them all wrong - I can do this on my own. But in our silence we have made a wall that we will never break. It won't be the same again, I forgive but don't forget. I forgive but don't forget. And I will rise up like the phoenix from the ashes, And I will rise up. Like the ghosts of who we've been. I will burn down any bridges left between us, & I will burn down any trace that you have left. And I will rise. I will rise. I will rise. So you claimed that you were scared to face my truth. "You weren't prepared." After all that we have shared, now our friendships past repair. And I wont apologize, or cover up with bullshit lies. I'll overcome, I will survive. But I will not forget. And I will rise up like the phoenix from the ashes, And I will rise up like the ghosts of who we've been. I will burn down any bridges left between us and I will burn down any trace that you have left. And I will rise, I will rise, I will rise. I forgive but don't forget. I forgive but don't forget. I will rise.
9.
I've been low & beaten down, tripping over my feet to the ground. Trying to find some courage for myself but when I look in the mirror I can't get no help. So I gather my strength, hold it to the wall. Swallow my pride & know that I am brave enough to fall. So I gather my strength, hold it to the wall. Swallot my pride & know that I am brave enough to fall & fly. Somewhere I lost my sight, forgot this was my war to fight. I might falter, I might fall - but I don't need you to stand tall. I'm a survivor, I light the fire. I'm gonna burn brighter, I am a fighter. I'm a survivor, I light the fire. I'm gonna burn brighter, I am a fighter. I'm gonna burn, it's my turn. It's my turn. Who's my "savior" if I'm not? In this life we've only got one shot to make it good, to make it right, to make it last. The light inside my eyes feels like it's fading fast. So I gather my strength, hold it to the wall. Swallot my pride & know that I am brave enough to fall & fly. Somewhere I lost my sight, forgot this was my war to fight. I might falter, I might fall - but I don't need you to stand tall. I'm a survivor, I light the fire. I'm gonna burn brighter, I am a fighter. I'm a survivor, I light the fire. I'm gonna burn brighter, I am a fighter. I'm gonna burn, it's my turn. It's my turn.
10.
Something strange comes over me, it goes in waves. I feel it when you get so close. Cant stop it when its taking hold. I get shivers up and down my spine, a feeling that I can't deny. Will I speak? No no I'm just too shy. I've been so cold, aching in my soul. This could be the start of something new, of something right. Take me home tonight. Take me home tonight. This could be the start of something good, of something right. Take me home tonight. So we spend all night shooting like the stars. Talking bout the future and who we are. Tripping over words, sliding in your eyes. Before you know it, I'm wishing you were mine and I'm falling. Baby I'm falling. Letting down my guard, breaking all my rules. Letting out my pain, falling into you. I've been so cold, aching in my soul. This could be the start of something new, of something right. Take me home tonight. Take me home tonight. This could be the start of something good, of something right. Take me home tonight. Baby I'm falling, baby i'm falling, and I fall... I've been so cold, aching in my soul. This could be the start of something new, of something right. Take me home tonight.

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released December 2, 2020

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Megan Betley Los Angeles, California

Megan began songwriting & guitar as a teen, becoming involved in bands & releasing solo EPs. In 2014, she was a performer on MTV singing show Copycat. She released debut full length album Shake the Dust (2015), receiving acclaim for rock ballad Deals with the Devil. In 2016, Megan released music video Alone With My Thoughts from EP Smoke Signals. Her latest album From the Ashes drops in 2020. ... more

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